Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Calm

I'm still feeling miserable yet I'm calm. better than yesterday. I know for sure it is hard getting a job in this hell-hole so I might as well create a job for myself. In order to do that I got brush up some IT skills.

On the weight front, I am not going to stand on the scale till the end of march/early April. I don't want to get too obsessed by numbers. Not just yet.

No more excuses, Shareen. no more.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Coaching myself back to life?

Dooh. what a lame title. 61 days has gone by since I started on my new mission. Att mår bättre. To feel good. so why the hell am i feeling like a piece of rotten meat?

Read aftonbladet's article about listening to my inner voice and it says I should prioritize. I prioritize myself and life but heck, i cant just live on fresh air and sunshine, cant I?

I WANT MONEY!! yeah, i am smart enough to know I need a job. Problem is this bloody hell-hole I live in, buggers want experience. now how the &(%¤ am I going to get any experience if no one gives me a freaking chance? so much so for the bloody hell-hole spirit.

Mood at the moment - totally miserable. am not feeling sorry for myself. I got myself into this. I did this to myself.