Not in the celebration mood

It is Aidilfitri/Eid next week and I haven't gotten into the mood yet. I hope by baking some cookies this weekend would change how I feel.. guess that I feel kind of lonely celebrating on my own. Fredrik has only celebrated raya once in Malaysia and I don't think he realises what it means to me. I'd like to pass on my Malaysian roots to Noah; to know the significance of eid, chinese new year and Diwali but perhaps at 3 years old it is too early?

Finding the doors..

I wished I knew who created this image because I'd like to tell the person :
what an amazing image this is... it calms me down... thank you.

"When One Door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us"- Helen Keller

Maybe it time I go open some doors!

Confession.

I'm an emotional eater. Apparently it is a type of eating disorder. The past few I've been working on myself, for me. Figuring out what triggers me. Why, when, how, what.. everything.

I eat to fill up the emptiness in me. I can imagine some would retort, saying 'what the hell is she talking about?' Yes, I may look like I have it all.

I need to find ways to make ME happy and not my loved ones to keep me happy.