Blind.

Holding on to anger, resentment and hurt only gives you tense muscles, a headache and a sore jaw from clenching your teeth. Forgiveness gives you back the laughter and the lightness in your life. by Joan Lunden

I'm not in anger, I am not angry. I am disappointed, frustrated, wretched, miserable, disheartened, crushed, bewildered. These are only a few...

How do I let go of the past, present so I can forgive for the future?

All these years I tried to so hard to please you, to make you proud of me and everything I did was never enough. You were never satisfied, were you? Instead of encouraging me, you put me down. You made me feel worthless.

I will thank you for what you did because it makes me want to be a better mom now. My miracle, my little bundle of joy was sent to rescue me, from the self destruction I caused myself.

The list can go on and on.. Not everything was bad, you know. I remember the wonderful weekends that started on Fridays the moment our bags were packed... or my 11th birthday. I had a sprained neck and you still kept your promise - we went to Burger King.

Can't you see what you are doing hurts the three of us? How blind can you be, so oblivious of your surrounding and environment. If the matriarch of the home isn't happy, no one else is. Stop telling me that you are not aware of what is going on! Enough of excuses! Open your eyes, see and hear the truth.

*listening to Richard Marx's Now and Forever*